Unfather’s Day

Today, I don’t want to exist.Tomorrow is fine, but not today.Today, I don’t deserve anything. I hate the happiness, I hate the gift ideas.I hate the attempts to cheer me up from friends and family.I hate cards, I… Read More

Journal Entry # 187 – It’s Hard When The Scars Still Remind Me

To heal a wound you must stop scratching it. – Paulo Coelho

Far From Home

I walk this earth an alienno place here for a castawaysurrounded all the timestill alone My blood, it’s not like yoursit repelsit taintsit makes things you love disappear

A Shade of Ash # 6 – Why does the happiest day of my life keep breaking my heart?

I tried again today as I have tried so many times since the last heartstring that bound us severed. For a split-second, I got to hear your voice. For a split-second, I thought you would listen to mine…. Read More

Ash To Dust

i look, turn around, and see your facethen, it falls away like dustlike a living dreamnot even yours in the first placeso, I keep walking along staring at the groundtrying harder to recall what’s left of the vision… Read More

My Heart in a Bottle

Like a bottle in a vast ocean…I’m driftingfurther and further from your beautiful shore, I floatmy body breaking against violent waveswhich pull me far far from the horizonalone, I wade, no one around to hear mefor the longest… Read More

Journal Entry # 166 – It’s Lonely Behind A Mask

You deserve to rest. Even if only for a moment. Put down the weight you’re carrying. Let go of the need to keep it all together. Take off your warrior mask. For this moment, now … just breathe…. Read More

Journal Entry # 157 – My Daughter Read a Text From Me!

Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. – Aristotle 

Just a Monday Moment

Admiring you from afar is like staring at the stars; beautiful to look at, yet too hard to reach.

A Heart to Live, Not to Love

Sometimes, I think my heart breaks without telling meLike it’s trying to feel something it once did beforeThough, if I allow myself to give in to its longingI’ll go and break it even more