Journal Entry # 216 – Flowers Picked From A Garden

I miss you every day of my life. Today was no different. Maybe tomorrow will be. – Dad

Soiled

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Like a flower starving
I long for your light
a drop of you
replenish me
or…
leave me to wilt

They Are Never Gone

The other night, I looked up for the moon 
To ask him for a small favour 
“Knock for me…at that heaven’s door” 
I was alone and needed someone in particular 
not only did sky open up and become ours 
the clouds even came by for a listen

Walked To Death

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It was as midnight as midnight could be
that late, dogs cried at the moon
all the way down
as I followed you
straight to an early grave

not once knowing
ignorant, childish, wishing for my own home

we shared nothing
no words, not a glance, not even…presence
only fading footsteps in the rain
before you went to a place you felt you had to
regret I held in a subtle hello
maybe I would have turned it off
stood a final chance
and shooed the voice away from you
but
when lady death came teasing your ear?
there was no way I, me…
someone who would just threaten a made up mind
compete that night
with deathly songs of teenage tragedy

singing you toward an infinite dark
by the tune of your own broken heart

stealing any lust left for tomorrow
then

I watched
as you walked toward the Bluest Oyster
never to see you again



Journal Entry 194 – Little Boys Of Summer

These are my cousin’s kids, Lochlan (right) and Xander (left) who are like my little nephews. Love them to death!

Adults follow paths. Children explore. – Neil Gaiman

Journal Entry # 191 – Being An Uncle, How Else Am I Supposed To Act My Age?

Children make you want to start life over. – Muhammad Ali

Far From Home

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I walk this earth an alien
no place here for a castaway
surrounded all the time
still alone

My blood, it’s not like yours
it repels
it taints
it makes things you love disappear

Continue reading “Far From Home”

A Shade of Ash # 6 – Why does the happiest day of my life keep breaking my heart?

I tried again today as I have tried so many times since the last heartstring that bound us severed. For a split-second, I got to hear your voice. For a split-second, I thought you would listen to mine. It was the longest pause yet…trust me, I know.

So, Ashton, I guess it’s another “Happy Birthday” sent off into the universe with all my love. Maybe it will find the world I’ve lost and help return it to me.

– Dad xoxo

Unbroken

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Dead of winter
as the winds howl
I’m still out there searching for you
footprints quickly cover
forgetting how far I’ve come
my hands, no longer feel
my breath, stolen
my eyes, blinded by this storm
my heart, almost empty
my will…unbroken

Journal Entry # 174 – Don’t Let Your Heart Run on Empty

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When you find something that makes you happy, continue to surround yourself with it. Miss it and want more of it. Allow it to imprint on your heart and keep giving your soul what it longs for. – Ash