over there, the light
right there, darkness
down there, too deep
up there, just above water
I don’t feel the sun
I don’t walk with the moon
I am blank
…I am empty
Empty
Tag: depression
A Night That Almost Lost Tomorrow
That night was eternal
drifting toward a forever sleep
voices falling faint
thoughts of tomorrow escaping
with time slipping away
I walked toward a light I was not scared to follow
body still euphoria right there
but before the final second of a wasted life
I found my soul
it told me I was not broken
gave me the strength to awaken
promising another day to make up my mind
Journal Entry # 225 – Self Kelp
When my days start to feel bland, I try adding a little salt. – Ash
Journal Entry # 224 – Grinning the Battle
Anxiety can sometimes trick me into thinking I can’t beat it. When I smile, I take back the lead. – Ash
Journal Entry # 205 – Cliff Notes
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. – Lao Tzu
Daddy’s Girl?
Let’s see, where should begin? For a couple of weeks, I haven’t been feeling the greatest. Hence, my most recent post and it’s morbid tone. Although, if I hadn’t posted what I did and the way I did, I wouldn’t be typing this to you all right now. I say this, because of the overwhelming support I received from it. I’ve got some pretty cool friends out there in the bloggerverse. They really came to my side, almost instantaneously let me add. I’m a very lucky guy.
Journal Entry # 120 – Where’s The Colour?
Depression is being colourblind and constantly being told how colourful the world is. – Atticus
Let’s Talk, Let’s Listen
Today in Canada, it’s Bell Let’s Talk, a mental health awareness day where we take to social media and show our support for those who suffer from various mental health issues. It’s a way of starting that conversation. As you all may or may not be aware, I suffer from general anxiety disorder and depression, it’s been the case for most of my life. I remember being very young when I first started to feel the feelings that I do. It was a time where I had no idea what was happening, I was confused, scared, and thought there was something wrong with me. As I grew into a teenager, the feelings and thoughts I was having intensified and got worst. It was hard, it was even harder trying to mask it from everyone, something I know now in this stage of my life I shouldn’t have done. Although, I am still guilty of it from time to time. Continue reading “Let’s Talk, Let’s Listen”
Journal Entry # 106 – You’re Not Alone!
Somedays can be really tough, I know, I have them too. Trust me, hang in there. No matter how dark the fog can get just keep going because when it clears, you’ll see that you weren’t alone and together we’ll all find our way. – Ash
My Misery
Why can’t I smile and mean it anymore?
Is it because of my friend, dear Misery?
But, I’ve known her now, more than anyone of flesh.
She whispers constantly in my ear.
Of a promise…that if I go with her.
She’ll take my spirit and scatter it amongst the stars,
so I may no longer be alone, in this world of the forgotten.
Earth To Ash 