I have been doing a lot of soul-searching as of late and I am contemplating walking away from writing, I have been battling with this thought of calling it quits. When I do, I feel immediate sadness, but at the same time relief, so many emotions bouncing around my heart and soul. Writing for me has had peaks and valleys, it seems that I have so many readers that enjoy what I write, but at the same time I feel empty and unsatisfied. I truly can’t explain it, so my plea to you my readers is this.
Do you enjoy my blog? Does it make you come back for more? If so, what is it that you like, can I evolve? Maybe it’s not broken? I have found myself at a crossroads and now I am faced with a decision of what path I should take. I’m sure, most of you have gathered that I like to overthink everything in my life, it’s probably a fault. I just sometimes need reassurance that my goals are being met and in the virtual world, it’s hard to get a straight answer.
I wrote a response to my readers some time ago, thanking each and every one of you for supporting me up to this point but again, this was a message in a bottle statement. We live in a world where we look for instant approval, some kind of return, some indication that there are those out there that are listening. Maybe there are some of you that absorb what I write and use it in some sort of way that to hear, would be incredibly humbling. Maybe what I write are just words on a screen that are swiped away without a second thought, oh woe is me.
So, I leave you to ponder, as I do with this journey of my own, much like life, we roll with the punches and hope it all works out in the end. I don’t know how each and every one of you feel about some random guy, bleeding his thoughts through a series of keystrokes, but what I do know is that I am forever grateful that you have given me a chance.