I tried again today as I have tried so many times since the last heartstring that bound us severed. For a split-second, I got to hear your voice. For a split-second, I thought you would listen to mine. It was the longest pause yet…trust me, I know.
So, Ashton, I guess it’s another “Happy Birthday” sent off into the universe with all my love. Maybe it will find the world I’ve lost and help return it to me.
Dead of winter as the winds howl I’m still out there searching for you footprints quickly cover forgetting how far I’ve come my hands, no longer feel my breath, stolen my eyes, blinded by this storm my heart, almost empty my will…unbroken
i look, turn around, and see your face then, it falls away like dust like a living dream not even yours in the first place so, I keep walking along staring at the ground trying harder to recall what’s left of the vision I have of you only time has started to begin to fade the picture even though my heart has a good memory the beats are becoming too far between those flashes no longer able to bring it back to life no matter how much I love you soon, i won’t be able to see you anymore when you’re way out of focus and completely lost from my heart
You deserve to rest. Even if only for a moment. Put down the weight you’re carrying. Let go of the need to keep it all together. Take off your warrior mask. For this moment, now … just breathe. – Jason Garner
Every day…I write you a love letter. No pen, no paper, just what’s inside my heart. I know they never reach you. But, right now I’m OK with that. Because, no matter how many words I’ve written, or how many more I’ll write. My heart will never close what was, what is…what will forever be, the best chapters of my life.